This short experimental diary film reveals my struggles with mental illness in my adolescence and queer adulthood while simultaneously reflecting upon my joyous childhood experiences. I investigate when and how my depression began and explain that my relationships with the people I love have supported me through my harder times. The film incorporates footage shot over May and June 2023 and archival home videos. Overall, I aim to resolve my "growing pains" through the medium of diary film and by reconnecting with my younger self.
After the death of their father, Wynn returns home to sort through his belongings. In the basement, they uncover an old VHS tape of their favourite childhood program, "Mickey's Musical Big Top." At first a nostalgic curiosity, the tape soon warps into something sinister.
